Looking for a light

’Cause I know I’m not alright,

Running thoughts in overdrive,

Every truth comes sharp, not kind.

Starting to see I’m too bright

For a room that loves the dim,

Trying to win without a fight

Still leaves scars underneath the skin.

I don’t sleep, I listen,

To the noise I try to hide.

Every answer comes too fast

When the world goes quiet.

I’m always awake at night,

When the mask slips out of place.

When I see myself too clear

To keep lying to my face.

I don’t need a perfect life,

I don’t need it all to make sense.

I just need a little peace

With the brightness I’m in.

Taking in the whole damn sight,

Every flaw, every shine.

I see patterns in the dark

Other people pass right by.

I don’t chase the easy high,

I don’t want the borrowed bliss.

I just want a moment real

That I don’t have to dismiss.

They tell me, “Turn it down,”

Like feeling deep’s a crime.

But I’ve learned the dark’s just louder

When you silence all the light.

I’m always awake at night,

When the world stops pretending.

When the truth doesn’t whisper—

It bends me but it’s honest.

I don’t need to be less alive,

Just to fit into their skin.

I just need to make my peace

With the fire I’m in.

Maybe I was built this way,

With the volume turned up high.

Maybe clarity’s a burden

When you can’t unsee the signs.

If I burn, let it be clean,

Not a slow and quiet fade.

I’d rather face the dark awake

Than sleep my life away.

I’m still awake at night,

But I’m done apologizing.

If I shine a little bright,

That’s not arrogance—it’s surviving.

I don’t need to win the fight,

I don’t need to prove a thing.

I just need to let myself be

What I already am within.

Looking for a light—

Not to blind me, just to see.